Gosh...

Have already wasted 1k+ at flights for myself for this summer break...........
If I get the allowance,
then it will be better,
I eventually save more money than I didn't go for the research...

But

if I didn't manage to get my allowance successfully,
my 1k+ expenses will be my net loss............ T.T
(if you guys didn't know, actually the allowance will only gave to the chosen people who have great cv or resume, which I'm not known at 1st)

Although I'm not the one who paying,
still feel sorry to my dad (who pay for my flight) since I insist for it at the 1st place...
He won't have to pay 400+ more if I don't go for the research program...

Have already submit the form for the application of research program...
And already book for the ticket...
If didn't get the allowance,
I really pay only for the experience....

Lastly,
anyone who read this,
please wish me luck.. >.<