寡

正形容着我现在的生活……

天分

我没有这种天分，
不过我会继续加油！

生蛋 快乐！ :p

嫌三嫌四

有个床，
有个书桌，
有个柜，
够用了啦。

而且住一天罢了，
还要emo?

我跟你讲，
我睡过课室，
我睡过森林。

在外地，
有个地方给你落脚，
又免费的，
你该知足啦！

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

把未来投放在什么地方 之哲学

不安、不爽、不自然，
完全是因为把未来投放去错的地方。

没错，
每次做东西，
都会在意别人怎么想。
无论是为自己而作的，
还是为别人而作的。

这造成无谓的多余，
总在意别人会说，
“我做多了”
“我做东西没重点”
“我做的东西别人会反感、不喜欢”

可是，
这忽略了，
我真正想要做的，
我真正希望的。

把未来投放在别人怎么想，
本来就是一种错误。

来吧，
别人是别人，
自己是自己。

先了解自己，
再了解他人。

先做自己喜欢做的，
并不是迁就别人喜欢做的。

先让自己开心，
才能有能力让别人开心。

Doh loi chot

Why you no ask me???

*When asked*

I don't feel like going out tonight...

DOH LOI CHOT ZZZ

Timeline

New timeline system in facebook..

Reading my own "history" now...

LOL

瘦了

刚想起有人曾经问我

你为什么要变到酱瘦哦？

我的答案其实是

玩飞盘玩到酱瘦的。

并不是因为有什么特别的理由而努力去减肥…… =.="

二十年来

小学六年级时，
大家都讨论去那个中学。

初三时，
曾挣扎於理与文。

高二，
很多人说高三不好，
留高三没希望。

高三了，
纷纷讨论读什么课系。

第二年，
就讨论毕业后，
在哪里做工，
在哪里定居，
在哪里找到着落。

无论在什么阶段，
都要做选择。

二十年来，
错过很多事情，
做错很多决定，
失去很多东西。

有后悔过，
但深知无法回头。

现在的路，
要比以前走得更坚定，
走得更自在，
走得更开心。

来日方长，
总有一天一定会找到自己的舞台。

假睫毛

其实，
是谁发明这种虚假的东西？
把整个人弄得看起来很假。

小姐，
可以不要戴假睫毛吗？

你不戴，
真的会更美咯。

Amazed

Went to JPN (Place for doing IC),
because my IC denied my thumbprint.

Wait for my turn,
ding dong,
I sat at the counter,
before I start talking (in Malay),
the lady at the counter automatically speak Chinese with me..

And guess what?
She's a Malay (or native).
Usually people work there won't automatically speak Chinese with orang cina...

Amazed.. :OOOOOOO

25%

From a little 10% had increased to 25%.

See how things go tomorrow~

不孝子

想出去玩，
出去看世界。

可是，
想到会花很多父母的钱时……

还是算了吧……

讲真啦，
其实父母的钱时要给孩子花的，
朋友讲。

可是，
还是过不到自己那关……

哎……

要尝试去问吗？

I must be crazy

Picture speaks itself.
Nah, just checking, not going to buy.

*Mas ftw? :S

心

深夜了，
关了灯，
开了冷气，
刷了牙，
准备要睡了。

说说这几天的搞作，
没什么进展，
拖拖拉拉的日子，
明天要结束了。

收拾心情，
重新出发。
否则，
就浪费了我当初选择少见一点朋友、要回来的决心。

旅途中，
顺势再寻找我的心。

不知是飘浮不知去哪儿了，
还是根本就没走过。

何苦呢。

Emo emo 就好，
明天又新的一天~

喜欢 与 不喜欢

发现外国人 或者 从小就在外国受教育的朋友 又或者 家庭背景很外国化的朋友

都有个共同点。

那就是
分享东西时

他们会说 他们喜欢什么 或 他们不喜欢什么

并不是说

这个好 或 这个不好

讲真得，
以前较偏向后者。

现在，
正在学习前者。

那样的我，
也许能够找到真正的自己~

喜欢的东西，
会比以前更勇于、更自然地表达出来。

至于不喜欢的东西……
看情况啦~
LOLzzz

叫我

以前
喜欢 一成不变

现在
时时改变

善变
才是我的真面目

叫我 熊先生
因为我看起来忠厚老实

叫我 蜜蜂先生
因为我时时刻刻都无定所

叫我 双面人
因为在不同的场面的脸孔会是非常极端地不同

叫我 随意者
因为我看起来是个什么都无所谓的人

叫我 车神
因为有时会发神经

叫我 小天王
因为偶尔要对我的英文名开个玩笑

最后
还是叫我 杨帏雄

因为
这代表了我的全部特征

没说出来

没说出来

是因为害怕

害怕有可能的
变成不可能了

说了出来
就代表要接受现实

然而

没说出来

并不见得一定不好

最起码

希望
还未被放弃！

Reminded

Reminded to sleep early again and again

Reminded that I have early flight tomorrow morning again and again.

Night~

那些年，这些年

那些年，
大家都哭着要回故乡。

这些年，
大家因长呆故乡而哭。

桃花依旧,人面全非。
叹哉。

你怎样哦？

“诶，你怎样哦？”

很多时候，
一句简单的问候，
足以改变一个人的一天。

让他记得，
他 其实 并不孤单。

I Believe

Let me have faith with what I insisted.

Let me have faith with my believes.

Let me have faith with something I have lost, not returning, but by another form.

I Believe

I Can

I Will Be

*Going to Perth tml, stay tuned! :p

蜜蜂先生

哪朵花有花蜜，
就去那朵花摘。

东奔西飞，
毫无定所，
就是为了无所不在的花蜜。

******

只讲过几句话，
谈得来一点罢了，
别想去别处了。

因为，
摘完了，
就得飞走了。

当见到下一站，
有花蜜时，
就会自然地被下一朵花给吸引。

不再留在同一朵花。

直到，
下定决心死守蜂蜜的那一刻。

Redundant

Means

Not necessary to be exist.

So

GET LOST

Sot

Sot fai lao hoi,
zui gin gong wa ng sam ng si....
La men hao? :(

受拒

并不是向人表白那个受拒，
是要约人吹水喝茶，
结果一个又一个地受拒。

没有问理由，
费事说我问长问短，
并不是我知难而退，
只是一次又一次地令我失望。
（是因为过得太无聊了，并没有对任何人失望）

看破了
看来真的是个无聊的放假

算了吧，
自己找节目，
自娱自乐。

由或者 下星期会有节目吧？

迁就

原来只是给人家拿好处，
被人家说天真无知，
愚蠢无比的理由。

我不介意被人拿好处，
只是，
有那一点的失望,
讨厌那 得寸进尺。

有如
我当你兄弟，你当我契弟。

算了吧，
是时候改变一下自己的想法。

省了十块，丢了两百多块

Air Asia 的系统换了，
我不懂，
因为太久没乘 Air Asia了。
等到朋友告诉我时，
已太迟了。

到KK时，
为了省下那十块，
我没先check-in……

由于还以为我还有很多时间，
就慢慢研究透过手机或网络check in 的方式。
发现不行，
怎么可能？

看看时间，
搞什么？
我竟把arrival看错成departure的时间。

发现时，
离起航时间剩三十分钟。

本人认为其实还可以，
可是那边的职员说一定要四十五分钟前check in，
过了时限，
就算职员想帮我，
上面的人也不鸟。

过了就过了，
没得商量。

惨了，
就讲了一大堆借口，
有的没有的都讲了，
只看见那职员爱莫能助的表情，
过了一阵子，
还是算了吧。

求救，
爸叫我直接去Mas订机票。

所以，
专机场的的费用，
加上临时机票的费用。

造就了，
省了十块，丢了两百多块 这个笑话。

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

***

重点是，
最终我还是回来了~

Inconfidence

There are many disappointments in my life.

I was dreamed of being someone who inspiring, convincing

Somehow

Just find excuses to exit these thoughts,
said that there aren't such people I would want to inspire or convince.

Eventually,
it's not that they don't exist,
it's because I'm one of the kind.

Needed to be inspired, convinced.

While I'm just finding excuses not to be inspired, to be convinced.

Telling myself that I don't need these,
but I'm not doing these.

Who don't go for a breakthrough.

How pathetic,
the inconfidence.

Ohhhhhh Yesssssss

Just got this reply around 2pm today.
At least,
a good start for my research. :D

Plan for save some money is successful~

羁绊

有时会让我寸步难移。

生气又没足够理由，
插嘴又没礼貌。

整天被无视。
很想包容，
可是，
到头来就是问自己，
何必呢？

太为他人着想，
换来的是他人的得寸进尺。

不这么做，
我会发现，
这已经是我的习惯了。

曾以为我像是个机械人，
没感情，
没思想，
没自己想法，
所有的东西，
都是那么多年透过外界的讯息，
通过记忆体存档了，
然后由记忆体告诉我，
怎样做一个人类。

可是，
长期被无视时我才知道，
我会愤怒，
我会无奈，
我会生气。

知道吗？
有时真的很想很想问，
在你们眼中我到底是什么人？

每次要回山打根了，
都会发现有人原来不想呆在山打根。
明白那感觉吗？
我很期待回山打根见到大家,
可是有人就想要赶快离开山打根，
因为山打根很闷，
回去读书的地方会有比较多乐趣。

个人觉得，
因为羁绊不够深，
所以啰……
还是那句，
显。

闲人甲，
可有可无。

***
后记：

情绪平复了，
以我以往的习惯，
平复了就不再选择去 post，
不过这次选择这么做，
因为突然想起最近看到的一句话，
“这些是你的感觉，你不应该删除掉”

所以，
呵~

Connection

The connections are getting diminished...
From time to time...

At least,
the bonds are still there,
I hope.

Less than 5 days
I'll be back

Time to reconnect.

Like?

When saw an epic comment,
I can see many people like......

I will like it,
as if it's funny or it's really good.

Sometimes,
just couldn't be bothered,
maybe I'm just abnormal,
don't think that's nice or funny at all...

Somehow,
it is just an offense,
or to discriminate,
or to show off and blah blah.
Just epic fail la.

Somehow I wondered,
why do I have to force myself to think like you?
Tired of complaining,
complaints about how life should be.

"Said is easier than done",
this is the most discouraging phrase I ever heard.
This is not a reason,
but excuse.

Don't know what I'm saying?
Neither do I.

Ironic

Hate to admit it,
but that is my true self.

How ironic.. :/

Careless

已成了家常便饭，
几分罢了嘛，
给它nia~!

哈哈~

期待

很多时候，
当初所期待的东西，
到头来才发现那些都只是镜花水月。

算了吧，
我的人生，
也总比很多人好吧？

Add oil

突然间很怀念这两个字……
这两个字，
代表 加油/study hard （大考将来临的时候）

不过现在我身边的人很少会对我这么说……

LOL~

Gosh...

Have already wasted 1k+ at flights for myself for this summer break...........
If I get the allowance,
then it will be better,
I eventually save more money than I didn't go for the research...

But

if I didn't manage to get my allowance successfully,
my 1k+ expenses will be my net loss............ T.T
(if you guys didn't know, actually the allowance will only gave to the chosen people who have great cv or resume, which I'm not known at 1st)

Although I'm not the one who paying,
still feel sorry to my dad (who pay for my flight) since I insist for it at the 1st place...
He won't have to pay 400+ more if I don't go for the research program...

Have already submit the form for the application of research program...
And already book for the ticket...
If didn't get the allowance,
I really pay only for the experience....

Lastly,
anyone who read this,
please wish me luck.. >.<

Recently

Recently,
seldom stay at home.

Recently,
often fool around at friends' house,
although finals is near.

Recently,
always sleep after 3....
For no reason...

Recently,
no mood to study,
because subjects for this sem more with memorizing...
Must study ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................................

Recently,
use a lot of money,
because often go out eat nice meal and tea break...

Recently,
addict to Dota again...
Although it's a waste of time...

Recently,
often get involved with pervertic topics more than before...
Since getting more perverted friends... ==

Last but not least

Recently...

Addict with COW and CHICKEN's theme song....
For teasing purpose...
Inside joke btw... LAWL~

Late night

Again,
till now still haven't sleep...

not doing any work,
still staying at there doing nothing...

No mood ah...

8 days later finals dy.................

Do anything also no mood...

Not going for frisbee recently,
is it because I lazy?
Or already don't have the interest anymore?

Room very messy,
again,
no mood to tidy up...

LOL...

Need somebody to help me get rid the lazy bum-ness of me~

Got who willing to help me?? XD

*Just kidding~ Skeep luh~

Faith

Not to lose faith to the people, things around me.

Not to lose faith on myself.

Faith,
is the reason why I have to move on.

突然又看回去年的post，
看见有个关于“女主角”的留言，
顿时迥了……

现在，
如当时的post所说，
进了student council，
有点希望如有人所言，
有个编剧的能安排个“女主角”跟我拍出这一场戏。

哈哈，
或许，
真的要去相信会有这机遇吧…… :)

Again and again

Procrastinating,
again and again...

Everything keep delaying,
work,
progress,
plan,
studies.........

Stay at friend's house on last few nights,
partly is because had 2 papers this week,
also find excuses to PLAY CARDS (BIG 2) AND DOTA(?) with the gang...

It's been awhile since I last played dota,
the game which got the most anti's from girls because this keep their boyfriend away..
Not entirely true though.. :S



Btw,
suddenly have a plan to find the right person before prom night next year,
but so far don't really have a particular target in Curtin,
due to delay again and again ("ng deh ng dew" or "lai lai han" in Cantonese) for the searching process... :S :S

Sometimes,
just feel lazy,
again and again,
so,
just wait for the right time then...........


"Kick",
where are you?
"Kick"!
I need you!!
Come on,
"kick"!! "kick"!!

"I like you, but you don't like me"

Haiz,
still keep saying this kind of things,
not sien de meh....

You haven't sien,
I sien already...
LOLzzzz....

为什么对她酱好？

曾经被人问过，
为何还对她酱好？

若已经没意思了，
当晚就不会千里迢迢，
特地去IJM载她然后又绕回去Grandview。

其实，
别想太多，
只是不想对她有意思时才对她好，
然后没意思了就睬她都傻。

我不想，
做人做到酱现实~~~ =o=

***

其实也没什么特别原因，
只是突然想起这回事，
然后又想起我当时回答不了这问题。
那么，
就让我在这儿写下我现在想到的答案吧~

喜欢炒作的人，
就继续炒作吧，
反正，
也没人介意了吧？ :D

So...

3rd - 14th Nov: Sandakan (MOULD)
15th - 21st Nov: Perth (VACATION :D :D)
22nd-27thNov (or 4th Dec): Sandakan (Sweep the MOULD)
27th Nov (or 4th Dec) - 19th Dec: Miri (part time research + some Ultimate?)
20th Dec - 1st Jan: Sandakan (x'mas and new year's eve :D)
2nd - 18th Jan: Miri (Malaysian + Moral Studies and continue part time research + Ultimate tournament)
19th - 29th Jan: Sandakan (CNY, hotel gathering again before that?)
30th Jan onwards: Miri until June (Finish MM Studies, part time research and start 3rd year sem 1 D: D: )

Haven't decide to come back on 27th Nov or 4th Dec...
Depends on how long my mentor prefer me stay...
Of course, I will prefer 4th Dec.. :D

Dilemma

Going to have an opportunity...



A research related to computational fluid dynamics during my coming summer holiday...
Allowance RM1000+ for 3 months...
Sounds not bad,
but

Need to go back Miri on Dec instead of Jan next year
If don't do so, then I must be very pro at it that I don't need close monitoring from my mentor for data analysis...
"Salabread" Christmas as well as new year's day in Miri with no one...
Most importantly, NO ENTERTAINMENT

I'm not like someone who are very determined ("This is the chance in once a blue moon, I will definitely choose to spend my time there!!"),
at least I prefer to spend my Christmas and New Year's eve in Sandakan... :/

The mentor told me that he will have a lecture about CFD tml morning,
that's a 3rd year lecture,
but I'm welcomed for it...

See how things go by then.. :/

Hard to imagine

Hard to imagine,
when complications attack you all the sudden...

I can appear so happily in facebook,
while blogging the negative side of myself...

Sometimes just felt helpless,
just reluctant to find someone to talk with...

Sick of the versatility of myself..

Perhaps,
time is the solution to help me gone through all these odds...

Get me out of here............

It's time

Wish me luck!

Lol

A bit drunk,
took 8 shots of cola + whiskey..

But still can walk,
recognize who are the people,
can blog...

Wants to vomit,
but still not until the level that I will vomit.....

And found something amazing,
I didn't simply say something,
didn't do something stupid,
and didn't think of you when the alcohol is on my mind.

How amazing <3

The bad thing is,
probably will have a headache tml...
Hopefully not that serious... >.<

Happy times

So fast,
it's another day now,
but today,
is a tiring day,
and a fulfilling day. :D

Tml,
need to wake up at 9..
ARG! D:

Funny facts about image in Curtin

-Quiet (Biasa la)
-Brainy (God?)
-All about academics (@@)
-Always stay at home (宅男)
-Not playful
-Very shy (okay la, sometimes lo...)
-Don't go clubbing
-Don't drink alcohol (although I anti it before)
-Conservative

Much more... LOLzzz

Tired..

Tired of.........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

being 车神... TEEHEHEHE :D

I noob ass.. :(