Freaked out.

It had been awhile that I didn't update this blog.
One of the reason would be I don't feel like to update it x_x...
By the way,
I have already undergo this so-called "after graduated" life for roughly 3 months,
and these time I couldn't get out from the computer, television, even outing also nothing that special,
you know what I meant.
And also have prepare for my CUTE(Curtin University Test of English)..
*I was unable to qualify their requirement of English as...
They don't accept UEC English and I got bad in my 1119 English..*
Parents couldn't stop nagging for what I'm doing,
"I know, I know! I KNOW!!!!!",
I had already speak this for myself hundred times every time they did that...
I know they had their point,
but the way they nagged,
is really arousing my feeling,
it just like I were a bloody spoiled brad who couldn't do anything great!
GREAT!

There are another problem I faced recently,
that is I spend too much time in the night and sleep during the day,
it isn't a good sign I know.
I have tried to reverse it for 3 days but still,
I couldn't manage to do that...
Guess it is still a long way to go... =\

Last night,
I think that was my worst night ever,
I have watched something that I shouldn't watch,
not really a horror movie,
just scenes in youtube which could made me excite..
Gosh,
I couldn't imagine how it influence my thinking,
it's worst than I thought...

Let me ask you,
"Had you ever do an action repeatedly every alternate days?(Time without doing it: 0 to 10 days)"
Sounds scary huh?
When I had already promise myself not to do that again,
the scenes I watched last night made it happened again,
and I done that today either.

That's the horror inside me all the time,
but last night I had found out that:
-Not only I enjoy those scenes.
-These people think that is funny.

For me,
that's cause crime.

*How could I get excited when I watched these crime scenes? Please help, YOU WOULD FIND MYSELF FREAKED OUT WHEN THIS GOES ON!!!! :'(